Last night was my last night I got to sleep here in my bed in my home..I have to head over to the office today to get my final things checked and done then Ima head over to the hotel after and just chill for the rest of the day. Then tomorrow is finally the big long-awaited day…I have mixed feelings going into tomorrow. Leaving a girlfriend, family, and lots of friends behind isn’t easy, but it’s part of life..just growing up. Fariya and I have to start focusing on our own separate futures for we both want to be different confessions. Her life is in the medical field as a normal college student as of right now. Mine is to just go where the Air Force takes me. Our relationship was kind of last minute I guess you could say..we just found each other and decided to go for it. Glad I got to know her..no regrets <3 I’m leaving behind my bed, which my bro is gnna take after I leave lol, a dirty room, and an unbathed dog..ahh I hope Lani is still alive after I get back. I’m not nervous at all…just so anxious; it’s always been anxious…just wondering what God has in store for me. My mom isn’t taking it well lol…seeing her first-born son going off into the world. My dad said it’s hard for mom’s to let go, she keeps telling me to be safe and stuff. I’m gonna miss my fam..lectures from my dad, nagging of my mom, annoying the hell outta Zach. Well that’s all I have to say really. Byee tumblrrr for now…hopefully aha
a song about realizing that sometimes you’re put into people’s lives for a reason.. a reason that’s all part of the bigger picture and a reason that’s bigger than just YOU… and you may have selfish feelings at first, but you have to know when to move on from them and just be happy on your own.
verse I i dont wanna be cupid again don’t wanna be just a friend i know it sounds selfish but its just how i feel not trying to be called the matchmaker i introduce then he takes her i’m just being honest and i’m keeping it real pre I don’t wanna know, say it ain’t so cuz i loved her first, but thats ok cuz at the end of the day chorus i gotta to learn to be just me gotta learn to smile and be happy gotta know when its meant to be and when its not i gotta learn to let you go you know you cant choose who you fall for gotta know when this is meant to be and i know now, its not for you and me verse II so maybe its not so bad seeing her with her new man just want her to live her life the way that she feels maybe its ok i played cupid otherwise i’d be stupid to keep her from the one she was destined to meet pre II now i wanna know, how theyre doin tho dont care if i loved her first, cuz thats ok, cuz at the end of the day